Stacy, July 16th.

I am a Child of God, & that gives my life meaning.

My vivid emotions & imagination takes me away from this world, so much that I tend to live in my own head most of the time. I am not afraid of being alone, but confronting my fears & insecurities can be incredibly painful.

I have my camera with me everywhere I go. I capture everything that I find interesting, be it my friends, the sky, a building, or just a lonely stray cat. To me, the most beautiful thing about photographs, is that each have a different story to tell. The things that you are unable to keep in your memory, are captured & preserved, all in a photo, forever.

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A: Amelia Annabella
C: Cherlynn
D: Derrick
E: Eunice
F: Fiona
G: Gavin Germaine
H: Huiying
I: Isabella
J: Jasmine Jialiang Jaslin JonTan Joy
K: Kaien
L: Leona Lihong
M: Marcus Lim Meiqi
P: Priscilla
S: Sharizal Stephanie
T: Tabitha
W: Wendy Wenkai
Y: Yokelin
Z: Zijing

Monday, June 23, 2008 @ 11:40 PM
Your joy will be my strength

Yesterday night was the final straw, I'm going straight for the sleeping pills. The only thing that's stopping me, is the fear that I'll never wake up again if I pop the pills.

On a lighter note, I did manage to catch some sleep in school today (haha.) It was recess before my MT lesson, so I happily slept throughout the one & a half hour. I don't remember standing up to greet the teacher, & he didn't bother to wake both me & Fiona up either so...

Met Joel at the Macdonald's at KAP later in the afternoon, & I honestly think he had a really enjoyable time laughing at my previous mid year papers ): sometimes he can really make me feel stupid. But then I did come home smarter (haha), & also with tomato sauce on the sleeve of my 07' JG camp tee.

Joel: It's okay it's both red anyway.

Should ask Luke to slap his face more (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA.)

I was walking back home today & I was thinking about all that's happened in the past few days. Perhaps instead of dwelling on all the disappointments that certain people keep making me take in, I should start putting in an effort to get over it & look forward. There's still this passion that burns in me despite all that has happened. Maybe one day I'll gain back the same courage & strength I used to have to give it another try. But not now, I guess. I'm too tired.

The people that I trusted in & cared about the most, aren't here. The ones that I originally thought would walk out of my life, are actually the ones that stayed behind & pushed me on. You know who you are (especially the one that stayed up yesterday night & kept encouraging me through your smses until you finally fell asleep), thank you (:

In the days of trouble, You cover me
In the secret place of refuge,
Lord I will, Sing.