I am a Child of God, & that gives my life meaning.
My vivid emotions & imagination takes me away from this world,
so much that I tend to live in my own head most of the time.
I am not afraid of being alone,
but confronting my fears & insecurities can be incredibly painful.
I have my camera with me everywhere I go. I capture everything that I find interesting,
be it my friends, the sky, a building, or just a lonely stray cat.
To me, the most beautiful thing about photographs, is that each have a different story to tell.
The things that you are unable to keep in your memory, are captured & preserved, all in a photo, forever.
Monday, July 7, 2008 @ 11:23 PM When you say love makes the world go round
Just because you were feeling like shit, doesn't mean that you can treat me like shit.
To put it bluntly, who are you to me? Why should I let you make me feel upset? I don't think I'll ever be bothered to even poke the tip of my nose into your life anymore. You keep losing my respect for you.
I walked through your door & into your life, but it's also time you learnt the fact that I can walk out of it anytime.
I always said that I'll be here for you, but really, you shouldn't take it for granted.
I slept for twelve hours straight. I know I ought to be happy about it but honestly I woke up feeling quite terrible because it was somebody's sms that woke me up (it was an sms sent to the wrong number)(thanks, whoever you are) & after that I couldn't go back to sleep ):
LH & I were supposed to catch a movie together with Fiona but hahaha she must've pissed her mum off real bad or something because she refused to let her out of the house. So LH & I decided to do a bit of window shopping ($$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ please drop from Heaven), a bit of munching on nonsense, a bit of bitching...
Speaking which, YOUTUBE IS CURRENTLY BEING A BITCH!!!!
Okay anyway. We hit the library then it's off to her place. I seriously feel like keeping another hamster ): I wonder how's Duke doing. (Honestly I think Duke should be dead by now because I had him when I was. Erm, nine.)
I'm quite afraid that the little thing would make my room smell like trash because there's nowhere else in the house I can keep it. My brother would just squash it to death or something. & then you know what they always say about 'the responsibility of having a pet'... I really feel kind of useless so I guess right now it's better that I don't take on any responsibility (haha.)
I wonder if I should give it a shot & join Danzity. Sure, I do miss dancing, I really really do. It's been forever since I could actually say, 'Give me a dancefloor, a DJ, & I'll feel better'. Maybe I've already forgotten how it feels like to hit the floor at the end of a tired long day, how I would actually feel better once I sweat it all out & let go of all the pent-up emotions that are inside. I know what I've been resorting to is bad, but should I sacrifice... Myself? Like what somebody told me, there's gotta be a boundary somewhere. How far would I let a person have his/her way with me?
Such emotion, such passion, such intensity. I really doubt myself. I don't think I'll ever be able to do it like that again.