Stacy, July 16th.

I am a Child of God, & that gives my life meaning.

My vivid emotions & imagination takes me away from this world, so much that I tend to live in my own head most of the time. I am not afraid of being alone, but confronting my fears & insecurities can be incredibly painful.

I have my camera with me everywhere I go. I capture everything that I find interesting, be it my friends, the sky, a building, or just a lonely stray cat. To me, the most beautiful thing about photographs, is that each have a different story to tell. The things that you are unable to keep in your memory, are captured & preserved, all in a photo, forever.

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A: Amelia Annabella
C: Cherlynn
D: Derrick
E: Eunice
F: Fiona
G: Gavin Germaine
H: Huiying
I: Isabella
J: Jasmine Jialiang Jaslin JonTan Joy
K: Kaien
L: Leona Lihong
M: Marcus Lim Meiqi
P: Priscilla
S: Sharizal Stephanie
T: Tabitha
W: Wendy Wenkai
Y: Yokelin
Z: Zijing

Tuesday, July 8, 2008 @ 11:50 PM
Yet another day & she lifts her head

God, the past six months has been so crazy. Life has never been better, yet it has also never been this painful. Looking back, I think I'm quite proud of myself that I've managed to hang in there & break through so many obstacles. I just want thank You for the wonderful, amazing, fantastic, fabulous people you've placed in my life. If I name everyone in my 'people that I'll love untill the day I die' list, I'll probably take four thousand years.

Sure, I've been stumbling, falling, & flopping all this while. But still I choose to thank You for every break that's in my heart, because I know that no matter how bruised or battered I am, I am still safe in Your hands. Your strength is above all strengths, & I make it through each day with your daily sufficient grace. In just a week or so I'll be another year older & I don't know what awaits me in the next year, but I will still put my trust in You.

I've reached yet another dead-end & You know I feel like trash. I do hate how for all this while, there's been more reasons for me to cry & be upset about, rather than for me to smile. When I'm not even over what happened before, another piece of nonsense hits me straight in the face. It all adds up... In a way. I know it's kind of dumb to let everything go just because of all the nonsense that's been going on lately, but other than fighting back & proving the other party wrong, I don't know what else to do. You know I never liked to back down, nor do I like letting anyone step over me. Now everything's screwed up. Was it entirely my fault?

It's painful but I've got to do it. I've got, to do it. I can't fall with my eyes shut, because I can't rely on certain people to catch me anymore.

But You'll still be there, right?

School was so insanely boring, partly because Dennis wasn't around for me to make a fuss about, met him on the bus when I was returning home & it turned out that he got suspended because of his hair (hahahahahahahaha serve you right.)

I had to serve a three hour detention today. Which was. Shitttt. It was quite dumb to be sitting outside the detention room but still I'm proud to say that I've completed four Physics papers. Just when I was blanking out after two hours or so, my 'Saviour' came (:

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Karim!!!!!!!!! Omg hahaha I love him so much. He plopped himself on the bench that's opposite mine, suddenly said "I've got chocolate" & mannnn you should've seen the way my eyes literally lit up at the sound of 'chocolate'. So the both of us sat there, munching away, talking rubbish, being stupid... Untill he had to go sit at the other bench because we got caught ):

Shit it's Wednesday tomorrow.